obsession with bloody action

..."i love the way you love.... but i hate the way.. i'm supposed to love you back.."
-excerpt from silverchair - miss you love

has almost nothing to do with the actual concept behind this. but.. had it on repeat this week. i really am attempting to stop the thoughts. i dont punch myself over her as much anymore. turning it into anger and then filtering it into the odd sketch when i can or shooting the fuck out of people on battlefield 2 seems to help. its not even a case of missing what i had anymore, i just feel so fucking alone. its so dumb, i know, but it's that 'you could never ever feel how you used to' feeling. anyway. i threw what i felt in that explanation into this.

spent a good hour or two half losing it to metal, half creating and going wild, it felt great.


this is for a hip hop duet named Magnolius. I was asked to contribute an image to a contest of theirs regarding the release of a new album coming out. We were to theme whatever it was we did for it on either a song or a lyric from it. Based mine on the quote i threw onto the guys tshirt. I dont think it'll hurt to throw it up here before whatever is meant to happen goes down, so here you are.

now to focus on that comic.. urh. i need an award scheme or something.

~b